september 23rd, 2023

I hate my birthday. It’s coming up soon, and I’m one of those people who gets really sad on their birthday; it’s birthday depression. says that symptoms of birthday depression can include the desire to isolate, the dislike of celebrations, and difficulty focusing and concentrating. Mac Demarco said in a field recording with NPR september 23rd, 2023

september 14th, 2023

Who you consider your best friend wouldn’t necessarily consider your their best friend. This is a reality that I’ve noticed since I was young, and haven’t been able to overcome. I am clingy, and I try too hard to find that ride or die. My vulnerability comes at a cost of being unapologetically honest, and september 14th, 2023

september 7th, 2023

I’m not a writer, I’ve never claimed to be a writer. Well, that second one may be a lie. I got my degree in it though. When I was growing up, I despised writing. You’d have too pull teeth and nails to get me to sit down and write a paragraph. I took up bad september 7th, 2023

august 25th, 2023

Loneliness is a blessing disguised as a sentence, a punishment. For an overthinking mind, it becomes exhausting when you are constantly preoccupied maintaining an image, or a face, or a mask to make yourself seem tolerable for other people. The persistent anxiety of the other is a curse of the mind, and it is not august 25th, 2023

july 30th, 2023

I’ve taken psychedelic drugs before. The shadow is a scary place. I don’t care if you do these substances, as long as you are smart and educate yourself beforehand about the risks and potentials. I believe psychedelics can and will change your mind, but depending on who you are and how you choose to take july 30th, 2023

july 17th, 2023

We all have something that rules our life, something that we’d rather not have to deal with, but makes our lives worse when observed forthrightly. Many of us have multiple problems which could be categorised as this “something”, this nasty burden which we must bare, because we have no other choice except death. For me, july 17th, 2023

july 6th, 2023

No one cares about you. No one cares what you look like. No one cares about what you have to say. No one cares how you think. You’ll be lucky if your family or close friends truly care about your life, because we all have our own to live. Who does care about how you july 6th, 2023

june 30th, 2023

I want to start a blog. I know it is not 2003, I’m aware of the year. (But sometimes I am not?…) I fear that most people will find my mundane thoughts too trivial to even bother with a read. And for haters I hope they’re right, because even the haters need a reason to june 30th, 2023